the need to create…
July 23, 2008
for some reason lately, i have been overwhelmed with the need to create. not just make something, or take a simple photo, but really take something that is within my self, and make it tangible, something to hold in my hands, and share around. that’s what i used to love about working in the darkroom. actually watching the image that i saw with MY eyes through the viewfinder, take shape on the paper below the suface of the chemicals. where it was once something only I saw, becoming something that everyone could take in. hoping that others would feel the same rush that i felt as i tripped the shutter.
sitting in front of the computer, is a bit different, for sure, but the possibilities are endless, and at my fingertips…literally. but man, do i miss those afternoons in the darkroom, exposing and agitating, filled with the anticipation of what the final outcome would be…
i think i need to pull out my 35mm, and find a darkroom to work in:)
when i sat down to write this post, i knew that i had something weighing on me, something that i was missing. i guess i found my answer.
+ j o s i a h . m i c h a e l +: mmmmm... dont you miss those buttes behind these shots? except you get green all year round! i know EXACTLY how you feel! i always struggle with that, and i often give up. :s because i don't have too much time to sit down and do that. i hope that you get to a dark room soon! i know i get to in a month!!!!!! that is why college is so great :)
Tamar: I feel ya on this, sista. The "need to create" has been weighing on me too lately. Seems like all I've been creating is babies lately! And as much as that is the ultimate creating in some ways, it's a LOT of work to tend to those "creations", too! I want to get back into exploring my creative side more, whether it's writing or art or whatever...I need an outlet!
P.S. Maybe you're more nostalgic about the whole dark room experience because it was actually Q-U-I-E-T in there, hmm? ;)